Life with you makes perfect sense

Life with you makes perfect sense

Monday, December 18, 2017


This year is coming to a close and although it’s been my biggest year of growth because of new trials and challenges I have faced, the only thing I continue to feel is gratitude for 2017. This year I am closer to the person I want to be than ever before. Authentic, flawed, honest, letting go of being a perfectionist and learning to truly love unconditionally. I have become closer because this year I have had to humble myself more times than I can count. 

2017 began where obviously 2016 left off and it was ROUGH and painful and any other negative word that you would like to add, {please insert here.} I could easily go into details of all the trials I faced in 2016 but some of them are still a challenge to this day. Regardless of all the challenges I promised myself that I would do whatever it took to make 2017 look different for me and that’s exactly what I did. 

I found the most challenging but rewarding job at Steps Recovery Center day treatment. I was blessed with such a freaking good clinical team that allowed me to question myself as a clinician but also as a person. I can’t count how many times I came home thinking to myself, “Who the hell am I?” Learning to question yourself often is a beautiful way to continue growth. I continue to work there and have been so blessed and I have grown in the field I love. 

Parker and I have worked hard on our marriage this year. It’s been a VERY trying two and half years. We have worked harder than we ever have before and sometimes it’s discouraging or a complete let down and other times we feel good with where we are. Regardless of the feelings in the moment I know we could both agree it’s been one hell of a ride to learn to connect, be honest and allow one another to be completely vulnerable with one another and try to be a safe place. Learning about your partner’s shortcomings is a process especially learning how to be their safe place to confide in you without feeling judged. Learning to juggle all of that is tricky business. At the end of the day we can say we try our best. 

Jagger started preschool in August at the Kids Village in Orem and it has been worth every penny. He absolutely LOVES his teacher and learning new things. It has been so fun to watch him grow and learn. He is as wild as ever but so much fun. Jagger is all boy and loves superheroes, painting, coloring and running around. It’s bittersweet to watch him grow up but I am loving the person he is. 

The cool thing about 2017 is being able to go on some fun vacations as a family! We went to Disneyland twice, Catalina Island and camping. We had so much fun and gained lifetime memories. Every year it becomes more and more fun to take Jagger to Disneyland because he makes it so magical. 

We had a lot of fun adventures this year that have become some of my favorite memories! We went to the zoo, Comic-Con, Cornbellys, Vegas, Lagoon, hiking and camping.

We have had a wonderful year with the good and the bad but we are blessed beyond measure and I know we are grateful for the friends and family that filled our year with love. 


Wednesday, July 26, 2017


As I have gone back to work full time I often wonder what I miss with Jagger during those 6-10 hour days. The days used to be our special time to learn, go on adventures and just spend time with one another. Now we try to cram those special moments at night and on the weekends. It's so difficult to be away from him but I am full of gratitude that our bond has stayed intact and that he is so well taken care of by my mom and Jeff. 

I feel like I need to document the small things about Jagger because eventually those will be the big things as I look back on them. I love this quote and it pretty much sums up how I feel about my babe... “Joy is what happens to us when we allow ourselves to recognize how good things really are.”

Jagger is such a social butterfly and has no fear of being himself and showing himself to the world. How I admire this and hope he will keep this confidence through out his life. He smiles and says "Hi" to everyone he comes in contact with and truly is a charmer to all those he passes by. 

He is smart! So smart it shocks me! He has this eagerness for learning and asks so many questions about things and has so much curiosity about his big world. Jags is starting preschool in August and I am so excited for him and know he will love it. 

Jags is fun and has such a fun personality! He has this zest for life and will find joy in each moment. I remember telling him that it was time for bed and as we were walking to bed he started spinning in circles and giggling. It made my heart happy and made me realize how important it is to stop and just enjoy the moment. That is something Jagger teaches me constantly which is to live in the moment.

Jags, you are my wild, loving, sweet and adventurous little guy. You have the biggest heart and do what you can to make people feel loved and happy with you. You have such a sensitive soul and has this great love for others and I'm grateful you have such a heart of gold. 

One of my favorite things about you is that you are actually funny, genuinely funny. I always ask if you are my baby and you immediately say, "No, I Jagger Jones!" You love superheroes and know all of their names, you love animals, laughing, playing and being a "boy." 

I am truly blessed beyond measure with him and he will always be the stars in my sky. 

Thursday, December 31, 2015

Our 2015!

I finally have sometime to blog and I figured hey why not just review the year because I have not been blogging very well this year.... 

So it begins.. In January we went to Las Vegas for our business Girls R Fanz 2, and it was a pretty successful trip! We had a few orders and made new contacts. Let's be honest in the business world it's all about connections. Other than business Jagger started smiling and it melted everyone. He was a pretty fast smiler and now that I know his personality it doesn't surprise me. 

The next big thing that happened for us was in April when we surprised Mason for his birthday and went to Disneyland with the family! It was so much fun but we learned quickly how having a baby seriously changed everything. We were always late and slowing everyone down because of feedings and diaper changes.
But let's be honest... My family is obsessed with Jag so they didn't care too much. California and Disneyland was an absolute blast! 
In July my mom and I did the Bubble Run and it was a lot of fun but it also made me realize how much energy and muscle I lost and that was a little discouraging. But hopefully I will be stronger by the next run. 
The next few months we enjoyed Jagger's firsts. It was so fun to watch him experience new things for the first time. 
First time in Park City

First Aquarium experience 
First time at the Zoo 
First time driving 😉
Jagger's first parade and the first parade he was in for winning a baby contest! 

Our summer was filled with firsts and so many fun activities and fall and winter didn't disappoint either. 
First time at the Utah State Fair 

Zion Trip in October with the family! 
Halloween he was a little bee! 

Seeing the temple lights

Meeting Santa 
His first birthday party!

As I look back on all of these memories I realize more and more how much Jagger has enriched our lives. I don't remember life without him and couldn't imagine going a day without his smiles and laughs. 
He started walking at nine months so he is an expert at walking now. He loves to tease and play with cars and his vacuum. He is always on the go and he's definitely our "curious George." The one "issue" we have with this little love bug is his sleep! Just sleep Jagger! We are all waiting for him to sleep this year and in his own crib. Other than that we love him, need him and want him around at all times. 

Parker has been working like crazy between side jobs, taking on a supervisor position and call outs. We miss him but we are so thankful for his amazing work ethic so that Jag and I can stay together during the day. He absolutely loves being a father and he's so good at it! We are all proud of him!  

This year I decided to apply to the Substance Abuse Program at the University of Utah. At the end of July I was unexpectedly accepted! I was so excited and in August I started the intense program with 13 credits, a practicum/internship, homework, working a few hours a week and taking care of Jagger full time. It has been such an amazing experience but it's absolutely exhausting! I will graduate in May and have a job all ready for me. It's pretty amazing! I love the work and my clients that I already have. 

This year has been an amazing year filled with love, laughter, success  and sometimes a lot of faith and hope with it. We are excited and ready for 2016 and what it will bring for us!